Pre, Mid, & Post-Corona
Now, before it all went down, I thought I was starting to get a grasp on things. Coming out of my first winter in LA, I had been asked on slowly but surely more gigs. When I wasn’t on set, I kept my schedule full, editing multiple projects a time with deadlines of their own. My nonexistent routine was horrible, & could be summarized as me swinging a bat in the dark - hoping I hit the piñata eventually. My workout routine was out of order, not reaching any goals anytime soon, and spiritually never feeling like I had made enough time for my walk with God and my faith took a backslide in priority. I felt the weight of many issues piling up in many different areas of my life. My life was full, arguably too full.
The last time on set was gripping a couple of days on an independent feature film in early March. I was fortunate to be a part of a great crew & we got some great looking shots, had some fun rigging in this large warehouse
One day over lunch, we discussed the latest updates on the virus & how it could shut everything down and we’d be out of work real quick. It was thought of as a possibility, but worst-case scenario. Either way, there was nothing that we could really do about it. A lack of control over the situation. Once we wrapped the show, only a few days later, our conversation becomes realized.
DAYS SINCE BEING ON SET - 37 and counting....
Now that I have time to take a lot of deep breaths and walks outside - I honestly do treasure anytime I see a dog!
I have had time to refocus priorities in my life and get a solid routine. I’ve learned to not feel that constant state of feeling behind - because I can plan time for when I will get to it. Now I prioritize my mornings by starting them off working out or running every weekday. And then ease into the workday ahead by settling into God’s Word. My morning devotional quiets the anxiety of a new day, I can know it has new challenges and get’s me excited for the day. Though I may mess up, it’s not the end of the world, and I’m working on setting realistic expectations for myself.
I've gotten so used to this view of my apartment - my window into the outside world. Standing still, amid of uncertainty.
This has been a wakeup call for me regarding who and what my trust is in. The phone for work can stop ringing, I can be out of a job in an instant. It’s not in my finances because that's tied to my work/income. Success and value in my life are more tied to my relationships with friends and family, and following God throughout this journey despite what happens in life.
What’s kept me productive creatively is getting around to decluttering my space, my gear, starting this blog, updating websites and hopefully updating a reel soon. The biggest blessing in disguise is the tax date moving to July 15th. There was no way I was going to be ready by April 15th. Thank. You. Jesus.
The situation is out of our hands, despite country belief, I am not in control of my destiny or my path either. But if we focus on what you can’t control, I promise - we will stress ourselves into a corner. You can accept the situation for what it is, and lean into what you can control and how you can keep moving forward.
This might be a time to hone in, a time to breathe or a time to grow. I know the lack of ability to work has affected many others in catastrophic ways but theres been beauty in the midst of chaos. Thousands of medical staff, doctors and nurses saving lives, and beautiful moments of humanity - it just depends on your perspective in all of it. We will get through this.
We're still in the thick of it, so post corona hasn’t happened yet. For now, I’m reminding myself of the verse below to keep me grounded in today.
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
How's your journey taken a turn through this year since COVID-19? What's helping you stay productive and creative?
In the coming weeks, I'll be sharing specifics on what you can try to help boost creativity in this tough time!